Today i go for ceremony for my dad,
feel like sad when every time see his name on the board of
dead people does, my tears will flow on my face,
but i had to control to not let my mom no it,
life is miracle, when God wan u go, u can not say NO,
u have to left all your beloved ones,
First is my dad, now is my grandpa turns,
I really feel very very sad,
I cant do anything except to accompany him while he still beside me now,
I really cant accept this reality..
why every one that i do love and care leave me behind?
Although people say dead maybe is a good thing for those people to go heaven,
but for me dead is the tough things that for those people who love and care for the decease,
u cant stay beside him forever except when the day your turn to meet him.
many things happen and now i can say that nothing is more important than family,
family is just like our important organ, if u dun appreciate what u got, u will easily lost them.

Result

Going back to college next week...
yesterday nite cant sleep cause today my result
is coming out. i so worry bout it.
although i no as long as i try my best then is ok..
but for me.. i always not trying my best to do it..
feel so depressing now..
keep thinking about the result..
i nvr hope to get good result but as long as i pass it
then is ok for me...

First day without Him

At last, my relation end jus like this...
Dun no why sudden feel free from all
problems...
maybe is because of those problems
had been torture me for a long time
now it release all.
feel like got power to have a new life again.
I should thanks to him
cause he at last understand...
Thank you so much.

Freedom

sumtimes i really dun no how to tell u.
i no u do care me a lot.
but sumtimes things had passed means passed
it wont come back to base.
why not u trying to let got is the best.
sometimes u think can change
but is ady too late.
letting go is the way to not let both of us
suffer from it.
longer time u hold, the more suffer u are.

Today i oni realize that u are so brave.
i'm really proud of u.
today we go to sunway and v got lost
on the way to midvalley..
that time i really scare cause dun no where
is the place..
but u nvr look scare and keep driving...
until then v reach midvalley..
I thought when he not beside me,
i feel like lonely and feel no safety at all.
but now oni i no that i'm wrong..
actually u are always the one who
support, care and love me.
but i just oni this feel years i didn't realize.
I wan thank to God cause send u to me
to take care and give me love.
although God had take him away from me,
but God stil kept u to me..
I love U.

Finish exam...

Yeah!!
at last... finish exam...
now is my turn to holiday...
it take me for almost one month suffer
from this exam...
at last i can rest for it...

Time no return

when i need care, where are u,
when i need love, where are u.
now... i dun need all of them anymore...
i just need to be alone...
i just need my freedom..
pls let me to be alone...
i wan my life back...
no matter how much u sacrifices..
he dint appricate it...
when lost the most important things u got...
you u be regret...
time can not turn back to old days..
broken heart is broken heart..
it wont be perfect as wat last...
love someone is to make them happy
everyday and not make them sad.
trying to let got is one of the good thing
to make them happy..
holding them is not a good thing which u thing tat
it will turn back like last had..
everythings had changed..
this include me...

Exam time is killing time

exam time is killing time...
i'm waiting the moment to finish exam..
i wan holiday...
gosh...
when oni can rest lar..
too many subject to study...
one day one subject exam...
faster finish exam.....
help...

Exam~~~

Final exam coming....
so fast finish one semester...
but i stil not yet study..
hahaha...
all the way round i enjoy my holiday..
but if i study also cant put in my brain...
my brain full of holiday...

Debate!!!!

happy leh...
today my team won the debate in college...
i got the best speaker prize...
but although i thought is my friend should be
the best speaker...
but i think is ok lar..
cause the debate is not so formal like real debate
in my pervious school...
one of my ex schoolmate very pro in debate leh
should seek advice from him...
how can be so pro...

Life....

What is life...
sometimes life seem to be easy and also seem to be hard...
i really dun no wat life really means....
everyone also wil leave this world one day...
but seem like is too early for him to leave this world...
life can be miracle...
i always hope to see him again...
but we just only can meet in the dream...
i nvr appricate wat i had in past..
now...
it is too late to appricate it now...
he wont be back forever. wont.

Finish exam

wow... at last finish my practical exam...

then one week break and then theory exam....

then my merdeka day...

so fast finish one semester....

two and half years very fast...

really hope can finish this course as soon as possible.

Happy~~~~

today, i had my presentation on principle of management..
i was so scare that my hands are shaking....
luckily, my friends michelle and keegan here to help me...
thanks to my team members... michelle and keegan..
my lecture said that our presentation was very good...

Mystery!!!

On Wednesday, my mom had gave me some money.
then i kept it at the drawer...
this morning, when i open the drawer, i found out that
the money had gone... just left 100 ringgit...
i find it all the place but also cant found it....
i ask everyone wheather got accidently told my money.
but no one take it or see it...
feel so strange, the money no leg where they can go by
theirselves...
i still finding it... my 200 ringgit lost....

Got scared!!

Today I had my POS exam..
before me is one of my friend...
after he had done he told us that is very difficult...
first of all, I thought was easy...
but after he told this... my hands start shaking
and heart beat become fast and fast...
but when it was my turn, the question was easy..
oh, thanks god... some of my friends had failed this subject...
next week start practical exams...
good luck to all my friends and to me also..
have a nice day.