Today i go for ceremony for my dad,
feel like sad when every time see his name on the board of
dead people does, my tears will flow on my face,
but i had to control to not let my mom no it,
life is miracle, when God wan u go, u can not say NO,
u have to left all your beloved ones,
First is my dad, now is my grandpa turns,
I really feel very very sad,
I cant do anything except to accompany him while he still beside me now,
I really cant accept this reality..
why every one that i do love and care leave me behind?
Although people say dead maybe is a good thing for those people to go heaven,
but for me dead is the tough things that for those people who love and care for the decease,
u cant stay beside him forever except when the day your turn to meet him.
many things happen and now i can say that nothing is more important than family,
family is just like our important organ, if u dun appreciate what u got, u will easily lost them.

Result

Going back to college next week...
yesterday nite cant sleep cause today my result
is coming out. i so worry bout it.
although i no as long as i try my best then is ok..
but for me.. i always not trying my best to do it..
feel so depressing now..
keep thinking about the result..
i nvr hope to get good result but as long as i pass it
then is ok for me...

First day without Him

At last, my relation end jus like this...
Dun no why sudden feel free from all
problems...
maybe is because of those problems
had been torture me for a long time
now it release all.
feel like got power to have a new life again.
I should thanks to him
cause he at last understand...
Thank you so much.

Freedom

sumtimes i really dun no how to tell u.
i no u do care me a lot.
but sumtimes things had passed means passed
it wont come back to base.
why not u trying to let got is the best.
sometimes u think can change
but is ady too late.
letting go is the way to not let both of us
suffer from it.
longer time u hold, the more suffer u are.

Today i oni realize that u are so brave.
i'm really proud of u.
today we go to sunway and v got lost
on the way to midvalley..
that time i really scare cause dun no where
is the place..
but u nvr look scare and keep driving...
until then v reach midvalley..
I thought when he not beside me,
i feel like lonely and feel no safety at all.
but now oni i no that i'm wrong..
actually u are always the one who
support, care and love me.
but i just oni this feel years i didn't realize.
I wan thank to God cause send u to me
to take care and give me love.
although God had take him away from me,
but God stil kept u to me..
I love U.